painted this smile on my face to hide my broken heart

I feel done. I am done trying to put up a fight about things, trying to make you see my point of view, and mostly I'm done trying to convince everybody of everything. I feel as though I could lock myself away and be perfectly contented for the rest of my life. I've learned that I don't put up walls to keep people out, and I don't push people away because I don't want them in my life. My walls are there, and I push people behind them, to see who's really going to make the effort. I understand that this isn't healthy, and I understand that I shouldn't require people to constantly prove themselves to me. It's just the way I am. You can't expect me to change overnight.